I found running because I needed to lose weight. Way back in February 2010 I wanted to do the Couch to 5K program and complete a 5K I began the program, but I was too slow. I could run when it said, and walk when it said, but I couldn't cover the distance it wanted me to. Then in Tae Kwon Do, I sprained my ankle, those two things combined stopped me from running for a while.
I am now about 34 pounds lighter than I was in February 2010, and I'd still like to lose more weight. Yes, I've been really slow about it, but there's been a lot going on in my life since February 2010. I hoped marathon training would help me lose weight, but it hasn't, and that's okay. Sure, I'm burning some calories, but because of the long runs, I need more calories to get through all those miles. It comes down to what I want more. I could stop training and focus on weight loss, or I could keep training and maybe lose a few pounds. I choose to continue training.
Do I wish my stomach would lose inches? Yes. Do I wish a bit of my inner thigh would not jiggle quite so much? Yes. Do I wish that the lovely toned look of my legs would start spreading to the rest of my body? Yes.
I won't lie and say I'm not having a hard time accepting that while my body will get a bit stronger, it may look like this a little while longer. I want to be a bit leaner, I want to be done trying to lose weight. I don't want people to ask me if I'm pregnant, because so much of my weight is concentrated in the middle. I was never seeking perfection, I don't need to be a certain size, or a certain weight. I could be happy weighing 131 pounds if it were a leaner 131 pounds.
I'm not going to give up on losing weight while I'm in training. I'm just going to adjust my goals. I used to try to lose two pounds each week. Now I'm going to shoot for half a pound, or at most one pound. If I lose, I lose, if I don't, well, as long as I'm still on track with my training, I'll be happy.
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